Took a crazy step

So, I joined Over-eaters Anonymous. It is embarrassing to admit. But yes, I feel like I have out of control behaviors. I believe that this will help me to change behavior by addressing my real issues rather than just trying to diet. It's a 12 step program just like AA. So far I am still working on step 1 and 2, which is basically just handing everything over to God and admitting you have a problem. I am not one of those people that gorge themselves until they are sick, but I know the type of food I eat is not good for me and I still do it. I am an emotional eater, and I do eat food I shouldn't. I can't do it by myself and need a higher power to assist me. So far since I've started this, I've lost 7 lbs. I changed my eating habits to the high protein diet bc I know this is what my body processes the best. I have PCOS, which means I don't process carbs well due to insulin resistance. But guess what my favorite type of food is...carbs.
Anyway,...one thing I am really learning is that I need to let go of some of the guilt I have had about 'disappointing' others. One part of the 12 steps (step 9)...is that you have to list everyone you have wronged and if you can, make amends. Although I do have a list, most of the things that I think about that trouble me are actually me making a decision that is good for me, but disappointing to someone else. Realizing that a lot of the guilt I have is unnecessary is eye opening. I play the victim really well apparently, and that needs to stop. I need to be ok with myself and the decisions I have made. I am happy with my husband, my job, my education decisions, and the direction I am taking with my life. No one needs to make me feel guilty about these decisions I've made and they shouldn't have that power over me that I feel guilty about pursuing my own happiness. I feel that I am finally getting control over myself. I recommend this program to anyone who feels like their eating is out of control due to emotional problems.